delerious

It’s 4:30 Thursday afternoon. I’ve been at home all day every day since Tuesday. And most of Monday. I moved this past weekend, and in honor of that, I got myself sick. So I’ve lived with unpacked boxes in my new apartment all week, and I haven’t hardly talked to a soul except my mom when she called to make sure I wasn’t dead and my girlfriend who was kind enough to bring me chicken soup. This amount of solitude is altering my sense of reality. It hasn’t helped that I’ve listened primarily to NPR all week. Though there were some great debates about same-sex marriage on Forum and Terri Gross just did a super interview with Jane Mayer who’s written about the Cheney-Halliburton connection for the New Yorker, this much time without any other human contact does things to you.So I don’t have a lot to report. I felt inclined to write something here for all the many many people who visit my rants. You’d think that I’d have a lot to say about politics. It’s been a pretty interesting week with Howard Dean dropping out and Mr. Bush feeling troubled and all about what’s happening out here in San Francisco. But all of that has a vague, dream-like quality. Overheard while slipping in and out of sleep. Not quite real.I’ve watched the sun drift across my living room floor. I’ve kept time by the number of bells at the high school across the street. I know when the mail carrier comes. But I’d like nothing more than to go out to dinner and have a glass of wine. Head colds be damned!What’s a boy to do?What I have been doing is some writing and some decorating and some thinking. The writing is coming along nicely. I’m not sure yet what it is I’m writing or how long it will be in the end, but it feels good to be writing for writing’s sake and not for such loftier ideals as “publishing” or “decorating my CV.” And the decorating is coming along just as nicely. I’ve hung art. I’ve put together my furniture from its box. But I need to get some input on some issues. Some female perspective. I’ll have to have my girlfriend over for a celebratory candle-lit dinner and get her two cents.And I’ve been thinking. First, I’ve been thinking of politics. Despite what everyone on the radio keeps saying, this isn’t really a two-man race. And I’ve not yet made up my mind who I’m going to vote for in the upcoming primary. If anyone cares to give me their two cents, feel free to drop me a line.I’ve also been thinking that it’s time to get out more. Recently I told someone that introverts like me recharge their mental/spiritual batteries by spending large amounts of time in solitude. But I think one of my goals this years is to be less introverted. Maybe it’s the delusional cold talking. Maybe I’m just feeling like a shut-in. Regardless, I think I need to get out more. There seems to be a lot going on out there and I want to find out just what the hell it is.If you know what’s going on out there, feel free to let me know.