What I was doing two years ago is exactly what I’m doing today. Of course, minus the girlfriend in Wyoming. And I gotta tell you, I’m not at all happy about it. In fact, I’m just this side of completely and totally freaking out.
Jumpin’ Jesus on a pogo stick!
I’m really stressed out about this paper for Japan thing. (Did I mention I’m going to Japan? They accepted a paper proposal I wrote and now I have to actually write the paper! Within the next two weeks!) In addition to that, I’m working my usual summer-time full-time job. And this week, I’m working six days straight. Same with the week after next. I keep having phone calls with people about cancelling plans. I have to trust that the folks in my life that know and care about me know that this stressful period in my life is temporary and we’ll get a chance to hang out again soon. I swear. But right now, I feel like crawling in a hole. (Dang, that was a bit melodramatic, wasn’t it?!)
On the other hand, will this period of Way Too Busy Scott end any time soon? After the paper’s done, I still need to read for comps. And I’ll be gone half of August at camp. And then Japan. And then Florida. And then Vegas. And then comps. And then Philly. And then L.A. And then Thanksgiving. Jesus.
Writing this rant isn’t helping my sense of stress and desperation in the least.
I need to just do it. I need to just sit down and start writing and stop freaking out and know that it’ll all come together one way or the other. I’ve been overworked before. At least, now, at this time in my life, the overwork is all stuff I actually care about.
And for Christ’s sake, I’m goin’ to Japan!